Today is my 35th year of travel around the Sun. I’m not sure what it is, but I feel as though I have broken through to a feeling of peace. Like coming out of a dark and stormy night, the clouds break and I am suddenly out in the open air, and the sun is shining, the birds are chirping, waves are splashing.
Just let me enjoy it for a moment.
Funny how birthdays become routine, sometimes a burden. I have never felt this way, but I have felt this vibe from others. As we age, we become aware and weary of what reality is. We have to accept that we have responsibilities to ourselves and to others. There is the choice to push forward and do your best or step back and let reality swallow you hole. Sometimes reality becomes too real. But the only real thing is how you perceive it and what you choose to hold on to. We can only learn these things with time.
This is something I have learned. I have held on to so much, but in the last couple of years I have started to let go. My internal monologue still continues, but now it is more positive. I have looked inward and discovered my shadow – and with this discovery I have uncovered my true self. A self I do not need to apologize for or discredit.
Even when I go on a waxy, philosophical rant.. I am just being me. I’m a twiddler, a dreamer, a silly heart…
Perhaps it’s because I have found a sense of purpose. Perhaps it’s because I have begun to surround myself with all or nothing. Perhaps it’s because I’ve aged just a little bit longer.
P.S. THANK YOU to my Cousin & Sister-in-Law for taking these amazing photos of me!!